You Thought Me Watz LiFe Is And Its Not FairyTales`

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Haiz....
Sitting in my cold office rm on a rainy day...
How i wish i could juz be sleeping at home and cuddle my soft and comforty winnie the pooh...
But too bad no matter if itz a rainy or suuny day i still have to attend to work...

Well yesterday my bro went to collect his N level result...
Well i like to congrats him on his great achievements...
Well looks like i really haf to buy for him the MP4 tat i had promise him...

Well yesterday my ex bf Remy tat i really love and i still love him till now called me yesterday...
I was so happy to hear from him...
I juz dunno why till now i still can't forget abt him and i still can feel the love towards him is still blooming in my heart...
Before i went to bed i listen to his favourite music MIRAME...
Tat song really bring me back the sweet memories i had with him...
Tat was the time when my mind is running wild as in " How i wish he and his future wife are not going to be togather. I'll really go back to him and I'm willing to be his wife..."
I juz dun understand why must i haf tat kinda of feeling towards him...
If i haf the chance to go back time juz like the movie DEJA VU i'll make sure tat i dun hurt his feeling and i wanna to live happily with him 4eva...
But too bad it could only be a dream for me to be with him as he will be getting married next year June'07...
Itz really hard for me to let him go but i juz haf to let him to move on in his life and i oso want to see him live in a happy life...
No matter wat happen i will nvr forget him in my whole entire life...
He will alwayz be someone special to me...
Remy if u a reading diz i juz wanna tell u tat no matter wat it is i'll alwayz love you and i'll treasure you forever and ever in my life...
Remember i'll nvr forget you till i let go of my last breath...
Our sweet memories tat we had gone thru togather for the past 10mths we were togather will be fresh in my memory...
How i wish he could come back to me like before...

As for me and my hubby now ok lah...
We seldom meet each other as he still so into his ns at camp...
I juz dun understand him...
Am i being selfish for not understanding him or is it juz tat i'll nvr understand guyz who in ns as i'm not used to haf any ex bf who in ns before?
When with my hubby i dun really feel tat i'm been pampered by him instead i'm the one who pampered him...
Seriously how i wish his character is the same as Remy...
Remy love to pamper me with his love, often meet me up, call and msg me everyday without fail...
But my hubby is a total opposite of him...
I'm the one who haf to pamper him, asked for a meet up, called and msg him most of the time...
If i were to ingore him by not calling or msging he will totally do the same thing to me...
I really dunno...

Well gtg for now need to complete my work...
Bye...

better off dead.
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