why did it have to be me?
Wat i known as : Nuruljannah Bte Mohd Kamal
` First day i see the world : 3rd March 1987
` How long i live in diz world : 20
` Where i grow up : Woodlands
` Wat i known as: Kid & ChaCha
` Wat i do as a living: Admin Assistant @ MAH PTE LTD....
` Horoscope : Pisces
` Status : Attached
` Wat he known as : Mohamed Saufian Bin Shamsudin
` First day he see the world : 9th March 1981
` How long he live in diz world : 26
` Where he grow up : Bukit Gombak
` Wat he known as : Ice & Loncong
` Wat he do as a living : Technician on a ship @ Keppel Shipyard
` Horoscope : Pisces
` Status : Attached
` First day we bloom : 01st February 2007
` Impoetant ppl in ma life: Ma family, Ma Lovely Boyfren, Seri(Ma sistaz lurp) & ...
` Ma Frenz: Salina(WGS), Yati, Ruq, Asiah, Farhana, Sheeda,Seri(MAH), Maya, Firda, Nani, Kecik, BoyZ from QC, Hardy, Rudy,Reezal,...
` Thingz Tat I Like: Winnie The Pooh, Chocolate, Baby Blue Colour, Shopping, Chatting, Make more new frenz, Bikes, Mat Rempit, Bikez...
` Wat i love to do: Joke around, Laugh, Disturb ppl, Hang out wif ma frenz, Meeting my darling & ...
_ dislikes.
` Loneliness
` Liar
` Back stabber
` Hyprocrite
` Busybody
` Bully
Saturday, April 28, 2007
*SAD*
Hi ppl...
Long time since i blog...
Well 2 bz wif my werking life now...
Well i the reason i blog is b'coz i'm kinda sad rite now as my nenek sedare had juz pass away today...
I was kinda shocked ar...
But wat to do dah ajal nye...
I really gonna miz her...
She's the coolest nenek sedare man...
Semoga roh nye dia cucuri rahmat dan ditempat kan digolongan org2 yg beriman...
Amin...
Well my life now getting better and better now wif my hubby...
He is alwayz there for me when i need sum1 to talk to...
Insya'allah if my destiny is to be wif him, i'll be getting engage to him by next yr...
hahahah...
Juz can't wait to tat moment to come...
He had told his parents abt it and they had no objection to it...
So glad tat his parents is so understanding...
Well gtg now...
Need to get sum sleep coz tmr nak gi melawat...
Bye...
Will update soon...
better off dead.
|3:30:00 AM|
Friday, April 06, 2007
:.UPDATE.:
Halo ppl...
Been way2 too long since i last blogging...
Been bz wif my career and my new bf...
Well i'm doing great now but a little feverish now...
Many thingz had happen lately...
Some are sad, some are happy and some really making me confuse...
I'm happy being wif my new bf and he is very nice to me...
Love him lotz...
Recently i'm back on track wif my sistaz seri...
We had lotz fun togather and share our prob togather...
Recently i had know a new fren...
He's really nice to me...
He's always there by my side when i'm stress at werk or feeling down wif my prob...
Juz two dayz ago i get to know tat he's a married guy wif 3 kids...
I was so shock and disappointed tat he didn't tell me the truth when we first get to be frenz...
I juz dunno if i should continue seeing him (as in frenz lah)?
i'm confused...
He does know tat i'm attached but still he wanna to be frenz wif me...
I dun mind being frenz but wat happen if his wife get to know abt diz?
I'm really confuse and dunno wat to do..
Anyone can offer me a solution?
Well gtg now...
Very tried and body aching...
Bye...
better off dead.
|11:40:00 PM|
Thursday, January 25, 2007
SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My day today is so sux...
Early in the morning my breakfast is my tears...
Not tat i'm a cry baby...
It juz tat i can't accept wat my own dad said to me early in the morning...
He said tat i only think for myself and not the family...
I'm not helping out in the family even though i'm already werking...
I'm sad tat my own dad said tat to me...
All diz while i've been helping the family...
I know tat i've not been helping much but i did help the family by giving money every mth and even give him money ever mth for his own expenses...
Not tat i wanna dig back wat ever i've done for the family but he made me do so...
He expect me to pay for most of the house bills...
I dun mind at all paying most of the bills in the house as i know i used them as well but why must he expect me to pay the things tat is beyond my limit...
I dun even went for shopping with my own salary...
I can't even pampered myself ever since i started werking...
All he knows is money money money...
There must be a money under his nose...
Now who thinking for themselves me or him?
He dun even make an effort to go and look for job and earn some money for the family instead he juz want money for me or my mum..
I know tat he is still under medication as stuff but why can't u at least make effort to look for job...
If he wanna look for job he very choosy in choosing the job...
I juz dun understand him at all...
Why must he think of himself and why can't he think abt how my mum and me feel when we had our salary but we couldn't even spend it on ourselves?
I HATE HIM!!!!!!!!!!
I really hate ppl who like to think of themselves but nvr think of others!!!!!!!!!!
If there is no other option will juz have to werk two job...
Morning my admin job and at night werking at a pub with my fren Ina...
If he still wants money tat is wat i'm going to do...
I've make my mind up...
If anything happen to me i dun wish him to even bother abt me...
All i want him to do is shut his mouth up and dun bother abt me anymore...
Juz treat as if i nvr become ur daughter...
I TOTALLY HATE U!!!!!!!!!!!!!
better off dead.
|12:48:00 PM|
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Upadate!!!!
First thing first i wanna wish FAIZAL(NANA BF) HAPPY 20TH B'DAE WHICH FALLS ON 21.01.07...MAY ALL YOUR WISH COME TRUE AND HAPPY ALWAYZ WIF MY LOVELY SISTA NANA...
SECOND TO MY LOVELY ADEQ IPAR IZIYANI, I WANNA WISH U HAPPY 19TH B'DAE WHICH FALLS ON 22.01.07...MAY U BE HAPPY ALWAYZ AND MAY UR RELATIONSHIP WITH MY BRO LAST FOREVER...LOVE U SO MUCH DARLING....(UR PRESENT NNT EHK BILA AKAK DAH GAJI KITA GI SHOPPING K DEAR)...
Here i'm again sitting in my office chair and doing all my werk as per-normal...
At times i do felt bored werking in diz kind of enviroment...
I wanna werk in a new enviroment but y dad juz refused to let me quit diz job...
I had an offer of becoming a child care teacher at Sengkang...
I wanna try tat job but my dad juz won't encourage me to do so...
Sumtimes i juz dun understand my dad...
Why can't he juz encourage me of wat i wanna do?
I'm the one who is going to werk and not him why muz he stop me?
I'm coming to 20 yrs old yet i can't make my own decision...
The reason why i wanna take up tat job is b'coz i love kids and the werking hours oso not as long as my current job...
Why my dad juz can't understand me?
Should i juz stand up and make my own decision or should i follow wat my dad say?
I juz got no idea...
Last Sat(200107), after werk met wif Ice and Momong at Boon Lay as we are going to chill out at Firda's place...
And again i cried in front of Firda abt Ice...
Firda got no idea of wat to do already and she went to call Ice and tll him tat i'm crying...
Ice came and tried to comfort me but i was so stubborn not wanting him to comfort me...
I was shocked to see wat I was seeing...
Ice was coughing badly and was vomitting but the vomit was not a normal one...
He's vomitting blood...
I was in a total terrified state...
I ran can called for Momong and Firda...
I was so scared and i cried on the spot and hug him...
His face was kinda pale at tat moment...
I'm so sori Ice...
B'coz of me making u worried and stressed ur sickness came back...
I didn't meant to make u stressed and worried...
I was too selfish and was thinking abt myself only and not thinking abt how u feel...
I promise starting from now, i'll nvr make u worried and stressed up...
I really care for u...
I wanna u too be happy alwayz without anymore worries...
On Sun(210107),I had a karaoke session with my parents at home...
Itz been a long time since i last had a karaoke session with my family...
Had fun ar...
Later part in the evening, i went out and met Ice and Momong and we went to Teck Whye to their godmother house...
Had lotz of fun and laughter there...
Ice was so loving at tat moment...
he hug and kiss me...
Pampered me with his love and make me smile all the way...
Momong told me tat Ice oso had a feeling towards me and want to take to be his girlfriend but b4 tat he want me to change and to stop my bad habit of drinking and oso clubbing...
Well actually i'm trying my best to quit all tat habit but i juz need time...
But i'm changing not b'coz of him only but oso for myself...
I juz dunno wat so special abt Ice tat make me wannabe with him...
I'm confused myself...
If really he's the one meant for me, i'll accept him with my open heart...
As for Hanif, i'm not sure myself how is our relationship going on...
Well gtg now...
Need to complete my werk...
Update soon...
Bye...
better off dead.
|12:13:00 PM|
Thursday, January 18, 2007
CONFUSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hi ppl...
Here i'm at werk updating my blog again...
Well many things had happened for the pass few days...
Well last Sat(130107), met up wif Shah(momong), Firda, Ice and Asmah...
We met up after my werk...
We went to Marina to had dinner a Seoul Garden...
When we were there to juz my luck is tat i saw my ex Sha...
He came to me and talk to me and was asking why i didn't call him...
He was si irritating and he wanna know wif who ever i go out wif...
WTF...
He has nothing to do wif me yet he still wanna be such a bloody busybody.
We had fun together...
Took video and pic together...
At Ct hall wanna go home, saw my old pal Adam...
He was wif his new gf...
Gud and happy for him...
On Sun(140107), went out wif firda, Sha(momong), Ice and my sis...
We went to JP and play pool...
We play pool like nobody busniess till 8+ pm...
Den we went to Banquet and had our dinner...
After dinner Ice send me home...
In the train we had to stand as no seats avaliable...
As i was standing, i was playing game in Ice PDA...
I almost fall down but Ice manage to grab me by my waist...
I though tat he will let go after tat but i was wrong me hold me by my waist till we reached Admiralty station...
When we reached under my void deck we deceided to sit for awhile and haf a talk...
Not only we had a talk, we oso took picz together...
Had a wonderful time tat day...
On Mon(150107), went to JP again after werk as to solve Firda and Sha problem...
They had a misunderstanding wif each other...
So me and Ice had no choice but to meet them and settle things for them...
After i had send Firda at the interchange, i met wif the guyz at acarde...
Ard 10+ deceided to go home and diz time round Sha and Ice send me home...
Instead of going home straight, we chill out at pondok near my house...
When i was sitting beside Ice all of the sudden he hug me by my waist...
I had no idea why he did tat...
On Tues(160107), met up wif Ice again but diz time round only the two of us...
We went to chill out at Fort Canning Park...
Well when we were there, i had a drink wif Ice...
We drank Long Island...
Both of us were tipsy at tat moment as when i sees him acting differently, i deceided to get him to go home...
In the train in our tipsy condition, we still can manage to take picz together...
The two of us act as if we were couple but we are not...
We are juz frenz...
But it will be a lie if i say i had not feeling for him at all...
Well since we are together most of the time and the happiness tat he had provided to me i starting to like him and hoping to be wif him...
I juz dun understand my own feeling...
Not tat we force diz kinda feeling to come but i came by itself which we juz can't stop it from coming...
On Wed(170107), met Ice again at Admiralty juz wanna chill out and had a talk wif each other...
When we were happily talking, he received a phone call from his ex-gf and after the conversation he had wif his ex-gf, his expression and behaviour change...
He kept on talking abt his ex...
I know he still had feeling towards his ex-gf and still hoping tat she might come back into his life...
I was kinda hurt for awhile but when i think back, i and him had no relationship but juz a fren...
The only advice tat i gave him is tat i wanna him to sit down and think carefully of the choice tat he wanna make...
Only he himself can lead himself to the correct path and decision...
Itz up to him to choose...
Wateva he deceided to do i'll alwayz support him...(cume decision yg betul lah jgn yg bukan2)...
No matter wat ice will alwayz be in my heart and i will alwayz L_O_ him...
I juz wanna see him happy in his life...
I myself not sure of my relationship wif Hanif...
Maybe i'll juz end my relationship wif him soon and juz lead my life alone...
I'm juz so confuse of myself...
Well i had said enough...
Gtg now...
If i'm still alive i'll update again if not den diz will be my last entry...
Kpd semua yg aku kenal aku nak mintak maaf byk2 and halal kan mkn minum aku k slame nie...
My life is so empty now...
Bye...
Picz That will alwayz be remembered in my life:
SATURDAY 130107
Firda and Sha(momong)at seoul garden
Ice and me at seoul garden
SUNDAY 140107
TUESDAY 160107
Ice and me in our tipsy condition...
better off dead.
|12:00:00 PM|
Thursday, January 11, 2007
UPDATE!!!!
Hi ppl...
Itz been long time since i last blogging...
Well nothing much had happen for the past few dayz...
Well last Sunday(070107), i went to follow my fren to escort pengantin...
It was my first time going to escort...
At first i was kinda scared coz i'm juz afarid tat the memberz of my frenz dun like me to be there but to my surprise all of them were very friendly...
Well my fren Sham is one of the TERATAI memberz...
Well wanna know wat most of the memberz are very the handsome siak....
I thought tat only TERATAI is the only cutting tat went for the escort but there is a few more cutting tat follow us to escort...(RIBUT SIAK!!!)
Well let me name them a few: Phantom, Eagle, Danger and a few more tat i can't really remember the names...
Well S'pore is so small tat one of the TERATAI member is my fren...
Itz cool lah...
I didn't miz the chance to take video while on the road...
If i'm not mistaken there were abt 100+ bikes tat wnt to the escort...
Not only tat Putra Utara guyz are also there...
They perform their kompang there...
I was shocked of coz...
Overall i did had fun and enjoy my day...
Since Monday(080107) till Wednesday(100107), Sham alwayz fetch me from werk to send me home...
He already know tat i've a guy but yet he said to me tat he will nvr give up and will try his very best to get me...
I juz dunno wat to say and do...
I'm so confuse...
Yesterday(100107), Ice called me and told me tat he wanna book me first for my b'dae tat will be in 2mths time...
He told me tat he got a surprise for me on my b'dae and he had plans for me on my b'dae...
One of the plan tat i manage to discover is tat he wanna to bring me to take a ride on the G-Max on my b'dae...
Hmmmm...
I'm sure it will be fun but i dun really looking forward to it as i juz feel tat so fast already i'm turning 20...
OMG i'm getting older and older man and i've not had enough enjoyment ever since i started werking...
I miz my schooling life, my havoc life, my nite life and my frenz...
How i wish i could go back time and really enjoy my teens life...
But too bad life have to move on...
Well Tuesday(090107), was my 3mths anniversary wif my hubby...
I'm surprise tat he remember our special day...
But too bad we can't go and celebrate it as i'm werking and he is in camp...
Boring kan...
But itz ok lah the thought tat counts...
Well syg HAPPY 3TH MTHS ANNIVERSARY TO U...
LOVE U SO MUCH AND MIZ U ALOTS....
Well gtg now need to continue with my werk...
Will update soon if i haf more interesting stories....
BYE!!!!
better off dead.
|12:46:00 PM|
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
Hi ppl...
Well diz is my first entry of the brand new year...
Well first of all i wanna wish all the ppl living in diz beautiful world happy new year...
May all ur new wish for the brand new year come true...
Well last Sunday(311206) was Hari raya haji and the eve of new year...
Wow two celebration at a time...
Well in the morning i went to visit my late grandmother cementary...
After that my family didn't go to our relative house cuz juz dun feel like going...
Later part of the day(at nite) i went to AMK to Seri house...
We deceided to chill out at her sister place for the countdown...
At first wanted to go to club but all of us are extermely lazy so Seri sis house is the last choice...
Fad didn't join us as he has some family problem...
Itz ok...
Doesn't mean he's not around the fun is going to stop there...
Reach Bedok at abt 11+pm...
We all waited for the countdown to start...
At abt 12+am all of us was kinda hungry so me,seri,kak mimi and kak ryna decided to go to bedok corner to buy some food back home...
Me and kak mimi felt like drinking so we went to 7-11 to buy 1 bottle of BACADI each...
I wanna buy Long Island but they run out of it so no choice to buy BACADI...
When reach home we had our dinner cum supper den we decided not to sleep so we play cards...
Had lots of fun with them....
So much laughter and joke...
At abt 6+am i and Seri decided to go home as i'm too sleepy and Seri oso had to go to work...
Monday(010107), reach home at abt 7.50am...
The moment i saw my bed i juz drop myself on the bed and fast asleep...
At abt 11+am my dad wake me up and asked me to get ready cuz the whole family are going to East Coast Park to have a picnic...
I was lazy but juz have to drag my lazy body up...
Reach ECP to my surprise there were alot of ppl there...
I, my dad,my bro and my bro gf went for a swim...
We all had fun together...
After that went to have our meal at Haig Road...
After our meal, we went to IKEA at Tampines and there i saw my ex-bf old bike which i have invest lots of my money on it...(FH4048)
Tuesday(020107),went to town and met up wif Firda...
After that we went to Bugis and met up wif my new fren Ice...
Itz was our first time meeting...
He was kinda dark in reflection but he's funny lah...
I had fun pinching him and his kuzin Shah...
His kuzin Shah wanna get to know Firda...
So funny lah the two of them...
After the long walking around the Bugis we decided to go to Suntec...
There is a reason why i went there coz Remy wanna met me...
So we walk all the way from Bugis to Suntec...
We den chill out at the fountain of wealth and there was where i met Remy...
He is getting healthier man....
I had fun disturbing him...
After the long fun at Suntec we went home and Shah sent Firda home and me Ice sent me back home...
Reach home at abt 12am...
Wednesday(030107), and today here i'm at office doing my work as per normal and updating my bloggy....
Well guess wat?
I lost my voice today...
Itz sux big time sia...
But the gud thing is that i dun haf to ans any calls today...
Wwll gtg now...
Lotz of work need to do...
Bye...
Picz Time:
311206
010107
MY BRO AND HIS GERL!!!
ME AND MR SNAKE!!!!
WHO IS TAT MAN?????
020107
AT FOUNTAIN OF WEALTH!!!!
better off dead.
|2:36:00 PM|
lonely. alone. lonesome. abandoned.
